my bf my life

Me ek ladke se bahut pyr krti hu or woh b mujse apni jaan se jyada pyr krta h but hum dono alag alag city me rhte h humare relationship ko 2 sal ho gy pr hum dono sirf ek bar mille h uska ph b uske gharwalo ne le liya h woh mujse bat nhi kr skta woh bahut rota h khta k uske sab frnd apni gf se millte h pr me usse nhi mill pati woh cahta h ki me uske pas rhu but yh possible nhi h mere liye kabhi kabhi woh khta h ki me uski life me kyu aayi or ab woh mujse bahut pyr krta h mere bina mar jayega or meri majburi k karan me uske pas nhi ja skti ap btaiye aise halat me mujhe kya krna cahiye me use udaas nhi dekh skti plzz help me