how cn i say

hello,
Im anlhea mae , I'm in love with a guy so much. but he hurt me coz everytime we have our mnthsary his always call me but later on , im always expcting for nothing and now we have our long distance relationship since march weve not seen anymore. so i promise to myself that soon i cn forget u but tym come someone enter my life that i cn never expect that the one that i dont lyk 8 is the one hu gve my lyf alive, but the problem is she's lesbian and she h8s my family but i cn not mke to live him coz i love him more than myself, and she knows already that i have my bf, wer still in our relation but i dont lve him anymore. but i know i hve my future with him, how cn i say to them, how i cn solve this pls help me.